MemberJuly 17, 2021 at 5:53 am
I am reading your post as I am sitting here reflecting on the recent events and connecting some dots.
So interesting that the city is called Schuld, guess what, here in Belgium, where we experienced those major floods too and many deaths, one of the hit villages is called Purgatoire (Purgatory) 😱 !!!! (from wikipedia; according to Christian belief Purgatory is an intermediate state after physical death for expiatory purification. The process of Purgatory is the final purification of the elect, with is entirely different from the punishment of the damned);
On Monday I had to make a trip to Switzerland to meet my dear friend, soulmate and future partner (we still haven’t been able to overcome the major blocks in our respective lives that make being together physically impossible). We hadn’t seen each other for 3 years and I didn’t want to miss the occasion (right on timing with the Venus-Mars conjunction in Leo) altough I really felt it was going to be hell to travel ; the covid-tests, the general unrest of the collective, the summer holyday rush, people releasing all of their lock-down frustrations,…
I was travelling back home yesterday after this significant (sacred) meeting and had to cross the hit region by train. I was blocked in Köln due to the floods with no way of reaching back home as all the railtracks were under water. There seemed to be no way to go around the area, so my last chance was asking my father to come and get me (a 5 hour drive with risks of more inundation and dense traffic). It made me very uncomfortable having to ask him that, I was wondering if I diserved that, if I had the right to ask him such a great favour. And I just did, and it felt good ! It wasn’t even difficult and he seemed to be so happy to help me out and to be seen as someone I could count on. Major healing for both of us in this.
And adding to that, this morning, as I read your post, I realize I went to Switzerland to visit my friend in the first place to clear a deep seated guilt at the core of my being deeply deeply sitting in the way of the relation to Myself and Him and to Who We Are Together.
Just noticing also the flat I rented was in the basement (!) of a building lying next to the river and was surrounded by Firemen and Civil Protection service the whole length of my stay. The houselord came to check regularly to see if I was allright. The pressure was high !
On my way back to Belgium the train was following the course of all those major rivers coming down of the Alps, they were all at their fullest (!!) and it felt very powerfull and healing. So much water everywhere.
Ugh…I am still unpacking all of that. Today it seems more fluid, clear, I am staying at my parents house and as the sun is finally shining today my father installed me a table in the garden to have breakfast and he just brought me a black-blue-white jaybird feather he found. 😌
Thank you for your light on these events !