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Itās nice reading everyoneās awakening storiesā¦
For me, my mum was my catalyst for my awakening journey in 1996 when I returned from Canada, she had begun menopause and started to present floridly psychotic, eventually getting diagnosed with schizophreniaā¦..that certainly shook things up for me, and unraveled much. In 2006 I moved to New Zealand, my cocooning time, going through ascension process till 2015, when I returned to Sydney.
Yet as I write about my journey there are moments prior to that⦠where I knew I was more, like the time I had fight with my parents at 19, and went and sat on a rock in the bush, experiencing a sense of oneness with myself and my surroundings. I guess these experiences are common with us all and I feel important to note, as it reminds me that throughout my life, that thread was there⦠the love of Christ⦠in my enjoyment of Easterā¦the self development class I took at 20, for 2years whose aim was connecting with higher self. Though kids play in comparison to what I experienced with mums schizophrenia, it was important in allowing for acceptance on some level of being more than I thoughtā¦. From where standing today, itās hard to feel was ever fully asleep.
But the move to NZ was the first time I experienced a sense of commitment to something (ascension) like I knew in my cells, this is what I came for.. and grateful for the support of mentor at timeā¦to be so lovingly supported during this very physical process⦠.. up until then had worked in multiple industries – hospitality, printing, promotional advertising, and health. Travelled and lived in a couple of countries. Having opportunities to advance in work, but was never really interested. In addition, the same with marriage, two proposals⦠no⦠always the thread of freedom, and not getting āboggedā down.
Yet my return from NZ 7years ago, was first time I didnāt have butterflies in my belly flying back to Sydney from living elsewhere. Stayed with parents for 9months at which time I was kicked out (released) from family home, studied acting, dated for first time in years, finished my masters in counselling, moved almost yearly till recently and here I am.
Thanks Mary⦠itās been good to do this first life review⦠š
Ps. Wanted to add to the 911 theme⦠the other day I happened to tune into 60minutes as they were doing a story on the miracle of 911⦠a story about a man who was found alive after the buildings fell⦠rescued by a fireman. It really touched my heart, especially at the end when they hugged hello at ground zero. These 2 men, full of so much heart, both of them tearing. š
Speaking of which I keep meaning to ask you question regarding something youāve said about masculine for you @lauren .. youāve made references I canāt entirely recall now, re the integration of⦠how it was always a challenge⦠something like that⦠š