Dianna 2 hours, 11 minutes ago
No, Maria. I certainly do not have a handle on this. As a matter of fact…I blew it. After trying so hard to get the negatives off me this morning, I got so angry that I’m now down there with them. I don’t know how far I’ve fallen yet, but I will find out soon, I’m sure. I’ve got alot to think about, and alot to make amends for. Looks like I’ll have plenty of time for that, by the feel of it all. I won’t be posting anything for a while. At least, not until I return from wherever I am. Blessings! 💙🤗🥰 dianna
Maria 23 minutes ago
Dianna, I’ve been where you are right now and PLEASE believe me it’s all bullshit and illusions. This is exactly what the negatives want you to see and feel. Exactly where they want you. A few weeks ago I thought this website / pathway was not even real, that no one here was real (sorry Lauren but that’s where I was). I was convinced everything was bullshit. I forgot who I was, I was filled with this ridiculous anger and hate that consumed me. I let it all right in and it nearly destroyed me.
There were three occasions that I came very close to ending it, where my actions no longer felt like mine and “they” were pushing me there. It was the most horrible thing I’ve ever experienced. I nearly went out of my mind. They were constantly trying to convince me that I needed to face my shame, my guilt, my pride. Constantly trying to convince me I was NOT a child of GOD. That I was bad, that I had sinned, that I needed to atone /redeem myself, and they did this under the guise of Beings of Light. It was actually quite convincing. I honestly believed that they were my guides trying to “help” me back onto my right path. But after a small period of self-disgust for my “supposed” actions, in which “they” were mocking and laughing at me, telling me over and over to feel my deep shame, to release my pride, something in me changed even though I still felt like I was fighting a losing battle.
And I started saying NO. I refused to believe that my actions had come out of pride, that there was anything that I had ever done to be ashamed of. I no longer cared if they were “beings of light”, I refused to acquiesce to their demands. I started to review my life, my actions and I became very clear that my “supposed pride” was nothing more than me refusing to bow down for anyone. That no matter what happened in my life, I kept my head up high, and looked at my “perpetrators” in the eye and refused to be taken into that “lower reality” with them. That it was just me refusing to bow down to any reality that was not of the love and light. NOT pride at all. ME being who I have always been, an ambassador/ representative of the forces of light on this Earth. Every single human being on this Earth, starlings included is having their true/authentic nature overridden constantly by the “programming” of these negatives. No one here has ever done anything to be ashamed of.
While we all have choice, this programming is just “too well worn” as Lauren stated, and all of us are drowning in self-hate, shame, unworthiness etc that’s just a bullshit program trying to derail us. And it is all bullshit/illusion. There is nothing we need to make amends for, we just need to wake up to the truth / remembrance of who we are. Nothing more. This is why they are doing everything to derail us as that is literally all it will take for us to remember and break through the illusions that they have cast for eons on this world and it’s people. As starlings we are FULLY capable of breaking through this. Don’t be hard on yourself. We aren’t going to master it overnight. Putting up boundaries, breaking through programming, is a daily discipline, something we need to chose over and over and over again in every moment from this point forward. This isn’t something that is going to end or go away.
They will always be there, and they always try to thwart us. It’s their nature, just as it is OUR nature to say NO to it, to dispel their illusions, to reclaim what has been lost to them. It’s what we are here to do, and we now need to be doing it on a daily basis. Everyday you feel them you just need to say NO. Everyday you need to just ignore them, go to zero point and just focus on anything but them. They are irrelevant. That’s what I keep saying…not interested. And some days I have a handle on it, others not as much, but each day also I get closer to sealing that door shut for good. But even then eternal vigilance is required, cause this will NEVER go away. And the game will change and they will try different things and so on, so on. It’s a game we’ve been playing for millennia, not just on Earth but this entire universe, across many dimensions and timelines. They shut the doorway out of our Universe a long time ago, and we have been fighting for our freedom for a very long time. We just have to keep fighting. And so do you. But as Lauren said it’s not really a fight, we just need to remain neutral/surrender. That’s all that’s required. And remember who we are. WE ARE DOING THIS! We just all have to trust. ❤️❤️❤️. Much love to you xxx